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A Gift…

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In this new season of marriage (to an amazing man, I might add ūü§ó), the Lord is stretching and growing me in significant ways, and I couldn’t be more grateful.  Though I could share many different facets of “learning,” the one that is top of mind is the recent gift that my Father gave me on Easter Sunday morning….

Over the last month, I wrestled with a lack of peace and some uncharacteristic agitation in both my thinking and actions.  I was tired on a regular basis (thinking it was jet lag from a trip back to the US) and I truly couldn’t seem to get to the bottom of it.  In that place of confusion it seemed to me that circumstances and interactions with certain people were causing my agitation. However, the truth was that I needed a revelation from Jesus of my own heart–the part of my heart that I could not clearly see.

The Saturday before Easter, I was so discouraged that I finally started asking Jesus to help.  I know He was just waiting for me to ask so He could pour His grace over me.  I went to sleep that night, and about 2:00 am he woke me up.  As I was laying there, I received a revelation of two words–“scorn and disdain.”  He told me that I was fighting a spirit of “scorn and disdain” and that they were rooted in pride and that I needed to repent.  Wow!!  I knew I didn’t come up with that!  

I cannot tell you how grateful I was (and still am) for the gift of repentance.  I truly didn’t know what to do or where to turn, and in His absolute love for me, He showed up with the gift of His conviction and repentance. I almost couldn’t wait until morning to confess, repent and be done with this thing!  

Easter Sunday morning dawned clear and bright and I had the amazing gift of celebrating the reality of the cross and the power of repentance that was bought through Jesus’ blood as I kneeled with my husband before my Father the King and repented, receiving grace…His amazing and unlimited grace.  

Joy, energy, clarity of thought and peace returned instantly after my repentance, and it was only then that I realized how much energy had been wasted in living with the sinful mindset that I was operating in.   

Repentance…what a gift…one that I want to receive and embrace every time as an amazing gift from my Father who loves me more than I can even imagine.

Pete and Deb Ochs

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This next month is FULL of events.

I have been asked to serve over this next year as a ‚Äúmentor‚ÄĚ in an ‚ÄúAccelerator‚ÄĚ program for non-profit and for-profit promising entrepreneurs. Our first event is happening next week.

Early February, we are hosting a week with Pete and Deb Ochs‚ÄĒan amazing business couple from Wichita, KS. ¬† God has both humbled and used this couple to build his kingdom in unique ways, including¬†starting a successful business¬†in a maximum security prison in the US while also discipling and investing in the inmate employees. ¬†You can see their story here.

While here, Pete and Deb will be intersecting with the South African business community in many different venues/settings around personal humility and living His kingdom in business settings.  We will also be facilitating two Journeys of Generosity during that week.

The Lord recently reminded me that the next month has NOTHING to do with events but everything to do with Breakthroughs.

South Africa has been at a point of crisis, and other countries in Africa are as well.  There is such a profound need for the children of the King and citizens of His kingdom to rise up in this country and continent, and bring His kingdom in Africa as it is in heaven.

I ask you to pray with me for‚ÄĒTRANSFORMATIONAL BREAKTHROUGHS!!

It’s Time…

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South Africa is at a time of crisis–a serious time of crisis (read below for specifics)…

Even before the crisis arose with the force of the last 3 weeks’ events, Angus Buchan (pictured above. ¬†If you have never watched the movie, Faith Like Potatoes about his life, it is well worth your time. ¬†Amazing…), one of the father’s of faith in this land had already¬†felt lead by the Lord to call a collective time of prayer for the nation–a million people of all colors and races on a farm in Blomfontein (4 hours from Johannesburg). ¬†Here is¬†his invitation.

There is a call on South Africa to be light and life–within its own borders and¬†into the continent of Africa. ¬†There is a significant battle waging between the forces of light and darkness, and we are asking the Light of the World to step down into this darkness in POWER.

Will you stand with us in praying for the nation of South Africa on Saturday, April 22nd.  The prayer meeting starts at 2:00 p.m. in South Africa, which is 8:00 a.m. Eastern Standard Time.  The prayer of righteous men/women avails MUCH!

Here is more information about the situation in South Africa right now…

South Africa elects a party, and not a specific person. ¬†The party chooses the president. ¬†Since 1994 the ANC has been in power. ¬†Nelson Mandela was the chosen president of the ANC at the time of the abolition of apartheid. ¬†The ANC elected Jacob Zuma as president in 2009. ¬†There is a two term limit of 5 years each. ¬†He has been charged with over 600 accounts of criminal activity–including rape, corruption and fraud, to name a few.

At the end of 2015, Zuma had a finance minister that was opposing his nuclear plan as well as a South African Airlines bailout, both of which have had suspicion of fraud and racketeering. ¬†Without consulting the party, Zuma fired the finance minister and replaced him. ¬†There was such a national outrage and fall of the rand that Zuma fired the second appointed finance minister 2 days later and appointed one that was acceptable to South Africans. ¬†The 3rd finance minister, Pravin Gordhan, also stood against Zuma’s initiatives for the last year.

Two weeks ago, Zuma, again without consultation, fired Pravin Gordhan, and replaced him with one of his own men who has no finance experience and would agree to his desired plans. ¬†This action has resulted in more collective outrage among all races and tribes of South Africa than has been seen before. ¬†The South African Sovereign credit rating was downgraded to “junk status” at this latest move, which is a huge deal for the economy.

As such, there have been 1000’s of South Africans marching in the streets, demanding for Zuma to step aside. ¬†I participated in one of those as well.

Because of his financial undergirding of so many members in his party and the corruption all around, so far the party has not been willing to courageously demand his resignation.

There has been a demand for a “no confidence” vote, which has been tried twice before to no avail.¬† The vote has not been secret ballot, and no one wants to be targeted by Zuma by opposing him openly. ¬†There has now been a motion to have a secret ballot, which is being considered by the courts. ¬†The “no confidence” vote, which could essentially impeach Zuma, is not being set for late April or early May.

The prayer is that Zuma will be forced or choose to resign, but an even greater prayer is that the government will be purified of the corruption and that the King of Righteousness will step in through His people to bring justice and righteousness to this country.

Racial tensions can also be very high, but there is also more of a national outrage at this behavior than I have ever seen, but another prayer is that truth will prevail and that there will be unity in this country among tribes and races like never before!!

Thank you for standing with us in prayer for this beautiful and unique nation!!

Go with Joy…

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A couple months ago, I had an accident in my little Honda Element. ¬†I ran into someone from behind. ¬†It’s the first accident that I have ever had where I was driving. ¬†Some might find that hard to believe, given my enthusiastic nature, but it’s TRUE!!

Even though it was just a little fender bender,¬†my Element, which has been dubbed my Box of Joy due to my “BxofJoy” license plate, had to go into the shop for extensive and expensive repairs.

The day I was going to go and pick it up, I was driving a rental car (which was so NOT my “bxofjoy” in any way!), and I stayed in the parking lot for a bit to finish a conversation with a¬†dear friend on the phone. ¬†As we said goodbye, she prayed for me that I would “go with joy” which was very needed.

As I walked into¬†Enterprise Rental, I ran into a woman¬†from church that I hadn’t seen for months. We were going in the same direction so they put us in the same shuttle to pick up our cars. ¬†As we were riding together, it suddenly struck me that her name is JOY. ¬†I was riding with Joy¬†while I was on my way to pick up my Box of Joy. ¬†I started laughing out loud. ¬†I mean, what are the chances…really??

The Lord seemed to put an exclamation on His message to me that day: ¬†“GO with¬†JOY! ¬†I mean it!”

How I love His sense of humor…when I have eyes to see it.

“You will go out in joy¬†and be led forth in peace;¬†the mountains and hills¬†will burst into song¬†before you,¬†and all the trees¬†of the field¬†will clap their hands.” ¬†Is 55:12

“…The Joy of the Lord is my strength!” ¬†Nehemiah 8:10

 

Faith…from the classroom to the field

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Faith…BELIEVING God for who He is, what He says, and what He does.

A new favorite faith song:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_YJ4vddbJJo

I have been in “school” learning about faith recently, and this class has been a tough graduate level course. Having known and walked with Jesus since I was 5 years old, I thought my “faith” education was pretty well-rounded, but I was moved from the classroom to “the field” in this last season. Here are some of my lessons–some new insights along with some known truths that have been under “divine review,” as I like to call it.

Faith…

  • Is grown in the darkness of no “sight.” “…Let him who walks in the dark, who has no light, trust in the name of the LORD and rely on his God.” Isaiah 50:10 “We live by faith, not by sight.” II Corinthians 5:7
  • Waits…ALOT and often for a LONG time. Hebrews 11 has many accounts of waiting. Not a favorite for me.
  • Is in some way foundational to my healing and the answering of my requests. “Jesus turned and saw her. ‘Take heart, daughter,’ he said, ‘your faith has healed you.’ And the woman was healed at that moment.” Matthew 9:22
  • Is proved genuine through suffering. “These [suffering of grief in trials] have come so that your faith…may be proved genuine…” I Peter 1:7
  • Is a mystery. “Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.” Heb. 11:1
  • Is not legitimized by the “outcome” but by the process of faith itself. “All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised….”
  • Is NOT the same as reason and often isn’t “reasonable”: “Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed…without weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead…and that Sarah’s womb was also dead. Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God…” Rom. 4:18-21
  • Is a HUGE weapon in times of battle–a shield. “In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.” Ephesians 6:16
  • Is VERY pleasing to God. In fact, “without faith, it’s impossible to please God.” “…But my righteous one will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him.” Heb. 11:6 and Heb. 10:38
  • Is ultimately in the person of Jesus Christ and for His glory. “Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.” Hebrews 10:23, I Peter 1:7

His love and commitment to teaching me is amazing and persistent. I’m thankful for my Father’s “hands-on” classroom, even though it’s often “pain that brings gain.”

God’s got an army…

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Having just spent two weeks in Africa, I came back with significant things on my heart and mind–kingdom things.

It has to do with Light and Darkness and an army that God is raising up, and I would love to invite you to be a part of this army!

Before leaving for Africa, a couple friends shared about light. ¬†One had been praying for my trip and shared that she saw a stream of light move across Africa. ¬†An elder at our church and a friend, not even two hours later, shared that he was reading Genesis with Jesus constantly in mind. ¬†God’s first command is “let there be light.” ¬†The sun was commanded “to govern” the day and the moon “to govern” the night. ¬†He noted that “light” brings governance and authority. ¬†Having just completed a study of Revelation, he further noted that Jesus is the ONLY light in heaven, proclaiming that no other authority/light is needed. ¬†Jesus is it!

“What does that have to do with Africa?” you might ask! ¬†Great question!

(Pictured below are some of the warriors in hand to hand combat on the ground throughout Africa.  I met and spent time with many of them on this last trip and some of them I have known for years!)

In attending a “summit” of African ministry leaders in February, our South African leader shared a picture that had come from their intercessory team praying over Africa and our time together. ¬†It was a picture of streams of light, sort of like lightning bolts, shooting throughout the continent of Africa.

Now call me crazy, but it seems like Jesus is sending some sort of message about LIGHT in Africa through all different sources, and light has to do with authority! ¬†Much of Africa has a foundation of witchcraft, demonic, dead men’s bones, corruption, fear, and ancestor worship. ¬†As many times as I have been in Africa and spent time with my loved African brothers and sisters, I had NO IDEA some of the things that are accepted as absolutely normal in a cultural setting, even a Christian African setting, until this trip as generational sin and bondage were addressed.

The enemy has held authority in some of these areas for generations–FAR TOO LONG. ¬†I believe that our King Jesus wants to expose some of these dark things, bringing His light and authority to the foundations of the African continent. ¬†If that’s true, then we have a WAR on our hands, though the Victor is assured and absolute!

I believe the Lord is calling the church to battle more actively for freedom from the tyranny of the enemy’s authority in Africa. ¬†Even though I don’t understand it fully, prayer holds POWER in the heavenly realms and brings His kingdom on EARTH as it is in heaven. ¬†(Read Revelation 8:1-5 if you have any doubts about that. Wow!).

Would you be willing to be one of the warriors of light that will pray His light and authority into the foundations of the African continent in this season? ¬†Will you commit one time a day, one time a week, one time a month–some sort of true commitment marked on your calendar–to pray for Africa by yourself, with your family, with your small group?

If so, it would be wonderful to hear from you, just for encouragement. ¬†I am serious about being part of God’s army recruitment in this season as “Aslan is on the move” in Africa and I want to join Him. ¬†Will you?

Dancing On Ashes

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For any of you who have ever sat in a pit of darkness or despair, needing just a taste of faith or hope–a touch of Jesus, I write of my current journey for you…

A couple months ago, I had a “fire”–a time where something very precious and valuable was suddenly gone–burned up quickly and unexpectedly, taking my breath away. ¬†It often still does. ¬†This loss has shaken my core and my faith like nothing else ever has.

Since the “fire,” I’ve been sitting in ashes, trying to sort through remnants of things. ¬†There are so many questions that have no answers. ¬†I have cried out, sometimes hourly, asking the Lord to answer me, to rescue me, to fill me, to comfort me, to speak to me, and to hold me. ¬†He has faithfully met me in so many different ways–friends/family, nature, His word, songs, notes–and yet, the questions have still plagued me. ¬†I often smell like smoke, tasting the ashes along with the saltiness of many tears.

Recently, in a time of seeking Him with my sister, Jesus gave me a picture–an image in my mind…I was clothed in a white dress and I was sitting on a pile of ashes with a house burned down all around me. ¬†Ashes…ashes everywhere. ¬†As I lifted my face from sifting hopelessly through the ashes, I saw Jesus standing right in front of me with His hand outstretched. ¬†He was asking me to dance…DANCE of all things. ¬† Seriously?? ¬†Can He not see that things are a little messy right now…and dark…and hopeless and that the last thing I feel like doing is dancing?? ¬†He does see, and He’s still asking. ¬†He wants me to dance…to dance on the ashes…with Him.

I cannot describe what the Lord did in my heart in that moment and the hope that flooded my soul…Immanuel. ¬†He’s here.

He will not leave me here in the ashes. ¬†He has a plan, and it includes DANCING! ¬†There’s joy somewhere ahead. ¬†I can’t quite see it yet, but it’s coming. ¬†He says it is. ¬†I just have to stand up, trust Him, take His hand and…dance. ¬†What does that mean practically? ¬†I don’t know exactly, but He’s teaching me.

As we started to dance, He picked up a handful of ashes and started to breathe on them, and when GOD breathes…there’s LIFE!!

My heart is different, even though my circumstances are not…yet. ¬†Peace…Joy….

Following this picture, He brought the line of a song to my mind–“beauty will rise.” ¬†Once I found it, I played the entire song, sobbing my way through. ¬†I didn’t know the full lyrics to this song–only the one phrase that He had brought to my mind, ¬† The words could not have been a more vivid portrayal of the picture He had just given: ¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rJynET3b3PM
“Out of these ashes, beauty will rise and we will dance among the ruins and we will see him with our own eyes…”

I accept your outstretched hand, Jesus. ¬†I choose faith. ¬†I choose to dance with You among the ashes….Beauty will rise (Is 61:3). ¬†You ARE the Resurrection and the Life (John 11:25) ¬† Behold, You are making all things new (Rev. 21:5). ¬†I believe, help me in my unbelief…

I’m still mid-journey at the moment, and though¬†your journey may be very different from mine, how I pray that Jesus’ touch in my dark, lonely place, will multiply like loaves and fishes of faith and hope in the lives of some of you who may still be sitting in the midst of “ashes.” Others’ stories of faith are doing the same for me.

Generations

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I had the privilege of visiting some dear friends in Colorado that are like family to me–adopted grandparents really! ¬†As I was sitting around the table sharing a meal with Dick and Margaret Patty, we shared life, pain, Jesus, Scripture, and places of growth.

As I left later that night I was so incredibly blessed by these friends in their late 80’s who are still seeking to know and follow Jesus and speak into the lives of people coming up behind them–like me. ¬†Psalm 145 lives in Dick and Margaret–“One generation will declare His works to another. ¬†They will speak of His mighty acts. ¬†They will tell of the glorious splendor of His majesty.” ¬†God designed it that way–for one generation to proclaim to another who He is.

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That is something I have thought about in my own family as well. ¬†At the moment I don’t have any children, but I have 8 dear nieces and nephews that I have an incredible privilege to invest in. ¬†I also have countless children of friends that the Lord has put into my life, and what a privilege it is to be one of the people who can tell firsthand stories to them of the works of Jesus in my/our life.

There are some very intentional ways that the Lord has impressed on my heart to invest right now. ¬†On family vacation each summer I have had a “God rocks” time with the kids before bed, reading Bible stories and incredible faith stories from missionaries as well as telling stories of our own! ¬†I love it as much as they do.

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I also have an “Aunt Laurie’s book bag” that goes with me in my car which has special books that my nieces and nephews and my friends’ kids read with me (thank you Kristi P for that idea!).

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At a recent slumber party at my house with all eight of my nieces and nephews, I invited anyone who wanted to join me for my “tea and chocolate” time with Jesus to wake up early with me, drink tea, have chocolate and read our Bibles together. ¬†Almost all of them joined me, and we watched the visual Bible. ¬†They were mesmerized for at least 45 minutes as the book of John came alive.

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How I hope that these sweet times with these precious kids will inspire faith in our amazing God just as an evening over dinner with Dick and Margaret Patty did in mine.

A Train Adventure…

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I have a fun story to share with you–A God appointed celebration on a train!

During my recent trip to Eastern Europe, I had to take a train from Slovenia to Czech. Trains always make me a bit nervous when I have luggage, especially if I have to change trains and heft luggage up and down stairs to make it to the next place! On this particular trip, I had one switch but I only had 6 minutes to make the switch! I really sense the presence of Jesus walking with me when I’m alone in these times, and I spend quite a bit of time talking to Him in the process! I usually ask Him if He has any “work” for me to do in these stressful traveling situations, and He often does.

I made the 6 minute switch successfully and got on the train I would now be on for a few hours. I originally settled in one compartment only to find out that there were reservations attached to that compartment that would soon be in effect. So, I chose to move to a different compartment that had no attached reservations– one with two ladies in it.

The conductor came and took our tickets and it quickly became evident that there was a problem between one of the ladies and the conductor. The altercation was all in German so I didn’t really comprehend what was happening, but I could understand the body language well enough to know that this woman was very upset.

After the conductor left I asked the woman in English what had happened, hoping she would understand me, and the distressed woman proceeded to tell me that the conductor had rejected a certain kind of discounted ticket she had purchased and was going to charge her twice the cost of the ticket to remain on the train. At that point I heard the drink cart coming down the hallway, and I burst out with, “You know what, let’s celebrate!!! It’s going to be a better day from here on out! I’m sure about that! Can I buy you both a cup of coffee or tea?”

As the ladies looked at me in some degree of shock, I told them both about my personal tradition of a cup of tea and some chocolate with Jesus every morning, and let them know that due to an early morning departure, I had not gotten to partake of that yet. I asked them if they would join me and offered to share my chocolate! Both ladies smiled and after getting our tea/coffee and chocolate, we settled into a great 4 hour conversation. I got to share my testimony with them as well as just talk about life–theirs and mine. One woman was Venezualan and married to an American working in Austria, and the other, who had the ticket problem, was Austrian but spoke English and was going to visit her husband who worked in Vienna.

In the middle of our conversation a very traditional older Austrian woman came into our compartment, complete with a dour face and babushka cap. All conversation in the compartment ceased momentarily. However, our wonderful conductor came around for round two, and now it was evident that the older Austrian woman also had a problem. Her problem was that she had gotten on a train that did not happen to stop at her destination, which was a local station. Now she would have to ride all the way to Vienna and then go back to her stop, which meant an extra hour or so in her journey. She was visibly distressed. Just then, guess what? I heard the drink cart coming….

and I said, “Let’s celebrate!! The day will only get better from here. Can I buy you a cup of coffee or tea?” The other two women started smiling and then translated for this Austrian woman, and we all had a delightful time drinking tea/coffee together, eating chocolate, and, though they didn’t know it for what it was, drinking from the Living Water!!